January 14th 2010

Dear Journal,

The past two days have been a little better, I have taken up running on my Treadmill and listening to some good tunes on my i pod to help me keep sane. It seems to be helping a little bit. I have been playing with the boys more. we enjoy wrestling on Mommy and Daddy's bed until it became a hair pulling leg biting game. Today I was able to run some non kid friendly errands in town today with the help of Grandma Burgess. You know places, the Thrift stores, Book Barn, Post Office, Blossom's and so on. I was able to get everything finished in half the time and then for the rest of the day I sat and visited guilt fee with Grandma Burgess and really enjoyed myself. I love visiting with Mari! She always makes you feel welcome in her home and I never feel like an inconvenience.

After we got home Daddy and Triston cut up some firewood to take over to Aunt Jessy's house. When they got back I tried to play a Thomas the train game with Triston that I got at a thrift store but there were no rules to it, however all the peaces were there. Tomorrow I will have to get on line and look for some instructions so me and my little man can play a game together. As for the rest of the night I will now prepare to close my eyes and get the rest that I need to be emotionally strong enough to battle the man who insists on bringing me down. That's right the Devil himself. So tomorrow it's on! Him verses Me and my treadmill. Let the games begin!

January 12th 2010

Dear Journal,

If I am going to be making a daily log of my life I really need to start doing something beneficial with it. Today was a hard day. It was one of those days you want to slap yourself in the face and say " shape up, things could be worse ". I could not seem to get myself out of the rut I had put myself in. All these feelings I was struggling with kept circling through my head over and over again. Those thoughts consisted of the following, I am a horrible mother, I am a horrible wife, I can't make good decisions, Nobody cares about me, No one would seem to mind if I just fell off the face of the earth, Why would they care If I was gone if they don't care when I am around, I spend too much money, I can't keep my house up, I can't stop yelling at my kids, they are going to hate me if they don't already..... etc etc etc. I know these are not only harsh accusations but harsh things to say to yourself. I want out of my rut! I want to be lively and fun, easy going and joyful. I want to be normal!! is there such a thing as NORMAL? if so sign me up because at this present moment I can feel satan's negative powers wrapped around my wrist pulling me away from the reality of life. From the good things I have been blessed to have in my life. It's not enough that I have a wonderful hard working husband that at the end of his hard day still is more than willing to lighten my burden by hand washing the dishes in the sink and sweeping my floors while all the while brushing the hair away from my face and lightly kiss my lips and tell me he loves me and is sorry that I had a hard day, I have to go and let Satan get the best of me and take for grantit the wonderful life in which I am blessed to live? Fine way of showing gratitude eh. I will conquer this challenge! I will not let these precious years with my children slip in between my fingers! I WILL win. If once you don't succeed try try again.

The joy of a fresh start

I have decided to change my blog up a bit. There was a day that I shared pictures and stories more for my viewers (which are few) instead of for myself and my little family to reminisce in years to come. So to start a new year off with a Fresh start this blog has officially become my electronic Journal. Everyone is still welcome to few as they please but daily I will be journaling all that goes on in my little "Punkin Patch" I hope that I can keep up with my goal and not add it to another New Years Resolution dissapointment list. Well here goes.

January 11th 2010

Today I woke up as usual with a whole list of to do's in my head and failed miserably at about 85% of them. Easy to do when your chasing around three little boys.

Triston and I started off the morning by washing up some beautiful eggs that Grandma Burgess gave us out of her little collection she was accumulating on her kitchen counter. Then after being saranated by Oliver and Triston on our BEAUTIFUL new piano we purchased off of Craigs List we packed up and headed out to Aunt Jessica's house for some refuge while some workers finished the last minute touch ups on our hand railing. All in all we had a good time minus the fighting and the constant flow of questions coming from our growing boys about snacks. Jess and I hibernated in her room while watching "Dr. Quinn the Medicine Women" and with that we enjoyed a little bit of eye candy by gushing over Sully the most attractive white skinned Indian I have ever seen.

After I reached reality we began to pick up our messes and head out the door to run a few erands before the day came to an end. On our way into town we came across a car accident which consisted of Andrew's Sister and a few of her children. Her oldest Daughter was driving there trooper trying to get some practice in before the big day when she get's to get her licence. She over corrected the trooper and rolled the vehicle. Luckily everyone was okay, What a blessing!

After our errands we went home and had a very kid friendly dinner, Ham and tomato grilled cheese sandwiches and Raman noodles after which we cleaned up and sent the boys upstairs to watch balloons AKA "UP". I finished up the dishes, got baby August to bed and then rested on the couch while Andrew saranated me with the piano. Soon after, kids were sung to bed with lots of hugs and kisses and then it was a nice hot shower for me, just what the doctor ordered. Regardless if I was not able to accomplish all my tasks for the day I was still able to enjoy another day with kids as young precious innocent children which in a blink of an eye will be gone with out me even knowing it. I am learning not to take those precious moments for granite. Why would you when you know you only get to enjoy them once in a life time.

Family Photos

Our Little Fam

Me and Andrew

Triston

Oliver

August

Loved how they turned out!

Happy Birthday Triston!

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Triston's Birthday was the day before Halloween. So we decided to go down to the valley for the weekend and take Triston to Build a Bear and the kids trick or treating in the warmer weather. We had his party at the park. Triston's guests included Aunts, and Uncle, Cousins and his friend Addie. He had a great time and thank you for all the gifts he loves every last one of them like they are his favorite.

Characater Pictures

This is a character picture that was done of Triston when he was 15 months old, and I wanted one of oliver. So my good sister Jennifer was going to Disney Land and offered to take a picture of him to the character Artist and have one done. I am so excited to see how it will come out.

This was the picture I sent of Ollie Joker. He is doing really well and hopefully he will continue to do so.

Blue Moon

Today I took a look at myself in the mirror,and well to be perfectly honest I did not like what I saw. You know it may seem real trivial but it can be really hard to go about every day in a positive way while trying to endure your post pregnancy phase. Believe me I know there are way more important things in life than trying to get those pre pregnancy jeans past your thighs but I also believe it is healthy to take a pitty party day once in a blue moon. So today I declare it a "Blue Moon". First goal for today? I will try to get motivated to go and buy myself some jeans that actually fit. My other goal for Today is to try and endure being a mother of three, and enjoy the goodness that comes from that. I need to re-realize that in all actuality I look pretty good for having my third baby only 7? 8? weeks ago. Tomorrow will be better it is going to be a positive day! I know that because a "Blue Moon" only sticks around for "1" day;)